What’s my deal?

John Rosemond, the acclaimed parenting author (Raising the Strong Willed Child), said that a child’s temper tantrum should really be called a “high self-esteem attack.”  This is not the first time I have heard that seeking high self-esteem is not in ones best interest. Supposedly, studies have shown that the people with the highest self-esteem are those people who are encarcerated in maximum security prisons. Oh yea, and two year old children. These are people who feel entitled to everything, and who are willing to do anything to get it. So, it actually is in someones best interest if all they’re interested in is themselves. if someone desires self-absorption, self-centeredness,  narrow mindedness, tunnel-visionedness, and overall self-destructiveness then one should jump on the first flight to Highselfesteemville. Okay, so I understand this but I still don’t get it. I don’t really get it because I can’t seem to live it. I feel like a broken record, or one of those lab rats that rewards itself to death. Doing the same dumb thing over and over and over again.  Why can’t I see the big picture and and get out of my own way long enough to see someone or something besides myself? It is maddening. I keep making the same mistakes. I keep committing the same sin. I keep hurting myself and others over and over again in the same way. What is it going to take? Well God, I’m praying for a break through. Can you help me out?